I have no clue what to do about whether or not I should try to get pregnant. My fiancé wants kids in the worst way. Some times I do want kids then others I don't. That's only because I have severe anxiety and depression. In the past I had it worse than now, since I'm on medication it has regulated it some what. I still have anxiety attacks at certain times, but not near as bad as I used to though. I just don't want to get off my medication now that's is helping me, for the most part. I know there are certain meds that can help with these issues while being pregnant. I just know they more than likely won't help me. I have tried so many different types of meds in that past and only found one that some what works for my issues. I know I won't be able to take that pill if I were to get pregnant.
I'm so torn any more. Growing up my whole life I wanted kids, until my mental health went downhill. Now I'm afraid to be off the meds and be pregnant. I know for a fact I won't be able to work if I were to get off this pill. Only because of the fact that my anxiety attacks are horrible to the point where I can barely function. If that were to happen while working, I know I couldn't handle it.
I try to explain this to my fiancé all the time and he doesn't seem to understand completely, just what I go through with these attacks, and why I'm putting off having kids. I'm now 34 and getting to the point where I'm afraid to even try. I feel it'll be hard on me at an older age. I know people have kids at older ages. I just cry every time I'm alone and see videos of kids or anything on TV about children, because I do wish I could have that feeling of being a mother. I'm just scared I can't handle it. I also don't believe a surrogate would be good for me, because it's a little pricey.
Sorry for the lengthy post. I just need some type of support, advice or anything that would help me with this issue. Thanks!
I'm so torn any more. Growing up my whole life I wanted kids, until my mental health went downhill. Now I'm afraid to be off the meds and be pregnant. I know for a fact I won't be able to work if I were to get off this pill. Only because of the fact that my anxiety attacks are horrible to the point where I can barely function. If that were to happen while working, I know I couldn't handle it.
I try to explain this to my fiancé all the time and he doesn't seem to understand completely, just what I go through with these attacks, and why I'm putting off having kids. I'm now 34 and getting to the point where I'm afraid to even try. I feel it'll be hard on me at an older age. I know people have kids at older ages. I just cry every time I'm alone and see videos of kids or anything on TV about children, because I do wish I could have that feeling of being a mother. I'm just scared I can't handle it. I also don't believe a surrogate would be good for me, because it's a little pricey.
Sorry for the lengthy post. I just need some type of support, advice or anything that would help me with this issue. Thanks!
Not sure what to do....
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